Forget Not To Be Happy Now

"Never stop striving for the best that is within you. Never stop hoping for all of the righteous desires of your heart. But don’t close your eyes and hearts to the simple and elegant beauties of each day’s ordinary moments that make up a rich, well-lived life."

President Dieter F Uchtdorf, October 2011   

 



Dieter F Uchtdorf gave a speech in the General Relief Society Meeting of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in October 2011 that has brought me so much comfort.  Here is the link if you would like to review it in its entirety: https://www.lds.org/ensign/2011/11/forget-me-not?lang=eng

The part that I have read over and over again is the reminder to be happy now.  He spoke of the book Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and how people in the story were ravenous in their search for a golden ticket.  They were so extreme in their searches that they no longer savored the chocolate that they had once so much enjoyed. 

Well, I too have been searching for a golden ticket and at times during the past couple years I thought my heart would completely break.  The search has been very personal and one most people just assumed we weren't on.  It has been hard longing for children only to be unsuccessful month after month after month after month after month after month after month after month after month, and then to experience the joy of expectation only to experience loss a couple weeks later. 

In seeking this golden ticket, there have been times that I have forgotten to be happy now.  In those moments I have always been comforted by a small voice.  No, not the still small voice, but the small voice of a precious 4 year old.  He will say things like, "I love you Mom!", "You are the best", "You're beautiful", "You're my best friend".  Sometimes he will just crawl up on my lap and snuggle with me while we watch a movie.  Sometimes we play games and just laugh together.  I would gladly take a houseful of children and we certainly will keep hoping, but I am happy now.  I am so blessed to have a wonderful husband and beautiful son.